Control Your Thoughts, Control Your Life…

it’s a bad week.

A big, bad “life is spiraling out of control” kind of week.
Which signals trigger warnings for me.
My energy level plummets, my motivation wanes, my sleep patterns gets messed up, and my desire to get out of bed… null and void.
The next thing that happens is I stop eating.
It’s, in my mind, the one thing I can control.
The caveat to that is that I only end up punishing myself.

So this morning, I turned a corner. Continue reading “Control Your Thoughts, Control Your Life…”

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and so it… ends? begins? stays the same?

Date: January 3rd
Mood: dark and thinky

Well, I guess technically my “vacation” officially ends tomorrow morning. (though I was working on and off throughout the break, including today, so I don’t feel as rested as I should)

Hopefully what will also end is this mung. Yesterday I sniffled and sneezed and snotted with such velocity I swear I lost brain matter. Today it, The Plague ™, had settled into my throat/chest. Not much blowing/sneezing, but rather that feeling of being weighted down, or sat upon by a large mammal. Continue reading “and so it… ends? begins? stays the same?”

“We’re not in Kansas anymore Toto…”

I awoke this morning from a dream about Tornado’s touching down in what I can only assume was Toronto, though it was a little Dali like in it’s post destruction state as I was walking around.

Here is what it means to dream of a Tornado:

1. A tornado indicates that you are likely to feel that an important relationship or challenge is on the horizon. The dream indicates that you are soon to be trusted in a situation and you must understand the consequences.

2. A dream that includes a tornado indicate the onset of sudden and major change in your life. Self-destruction.
Something that is unpredictable or uncontrollable … Continue reading ““We’re not in Kansas anymore Toto…””